Santa Claus intensifies.

Not quite telling. We have customers from various countries.

Ok, put it into an excel formula then.

No. How can you know that you are not mature by yourself? You will obviously believe that you are, even if you are not.

22 old for boys is not generally mature. He could be the exception, I guess, but I would not ask on Lemmy for such important life decisions if I would consider myself to be mature anyway.

Try thinking about it in 10 years when you are 32. You will have more life experience by then, will know better what you want to do, and see if you remain with this partner or have changed your mind or hera has changed. Boys at that age obviously don’t think about starting a family, but are just horny. Older guys or especially women might start thinking about settling down a decade from now.

Just wear protection until then.

You mean Gnu/Linux etc.

Planescape Torment yes can be pacifist-ed, except for killing a zombie at the very beginning of the game.

Then again, killing/death is a bit strange in this game, so…

In that case, she might sound like a person you could discuss this side of yourself and maybe get some help or perspective from. You will lose the romantic outlook, most likely (or at least should, if you honesty want to understand and improve yourself) but then again that’s probably for the best.

You can’t really form a proper relationship with someone so far away that you have never met. You are probably interested in her because at the moment she is your only available avenue. Not because she is the one for you.

So in my opinion, if you trust her and can discuss anything with her, try to discuss your romantic situation with her, ask her to use her to understand yourself, then do the harder step and move to try to form healthy IRL relationships with people, eventually naturally leading to a romantic relationship. Not out of desperation, but out of real interest.

It seems hard because you need to change meaningful things about yourself and your mentality. But I would say it is more scary than hard. You need to get out of your current comfort zone, but you don’t need to do actually hard things.

It will take time. But if you can make it, it will last. I have been in kinda similar situation in the past, but am now miles ahead from where I was standing and very happy.

What the actual fuck.